I used to proud of my total independence. I say whatever shit I want to say, do whatever stuff I want to do. No one can control me or bug me. But on the flip side, no body cases what I do. Every time I mention something like this, my friends will say "it's about time to get a girl friend". But that sounds too much like getting a girl friend just to fulfill my need, as in "I am thirty, so I buy a bottle of water" (and by the way, sorry, but still don't like the idea of buying bottled natural resources). Beside, there's consequence. I can't get, utilize, and then get rid of a girl friend, like people getting rid of their pets. Usually I either not attach to someone or some object, or getting very attached to someone or something, even after they died or self-destructed. And my experience told me that you don't just get a girl friend, but instead a family of new friends, relatives, and sometimes enemies. I really don't know if I am being overly selfish or overly sensitive.

Still, there's no string attach to me right now. All is takes me kick start myself to search a new adventure of love and hate. Or wait for "little people" do it's magic.

I should stop reading "1Q84" for a while.

Location:Should I find a girl friend?