Bad make up started my bad day

I am still introspecting trying to figure out why I didn't have fun at A-kon this year.

I think it started with terrible make up. I don't do make up well in general, but the one I did on last Saturday morning was terrible mainly because the room I did my make up at was too dark. The light source, which was the sunlight at the back reflecting on the mirror I used didn't gave me a clear image of my face. As the result I applied way too much make up and it was way too dark. By the time I realized that it's too late, and I only got enough time to slightly decrease the damage.

And then my wig was too tight. Actually I shouldn't wear the wig I worn cause it wasn't look good on my face. So I felt like I was like a freak. The negative self-awareness made carry a grumpy face, which did help in an occasion that was all about being socialize .

Finally, somehow, I felt like I don't enjoy crossplaying among teenagers anymore. There's such a big generation gap that I really found myself not fitting in.

Anime convention is like a high school experience with anime skin. I also realize that , just like in high school, if I am not attending panels, there is still not much stuff that I really enjoy doing at anime convention. It's just like when I was in highschool I didn't do much other stuff besides taking classes. I also don't find much common stuff to chat with my fellow Cosplayers, just like there's not much conversation between me and my classmates back when I was in high school.

So basically there's not much imporvement on me. I was an anti-social geeky guy back in the high school, and I was an anti-social geeky cosplayer in the anime convention.

Now that I realized this, I should put a stop on attending these conventions.